My life would suck without you

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

Because we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
Yeah you got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out
I'm nothing without you

Because we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
Yeah you got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh Yeah

Because we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
Yeah you got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Cluelessness

I've been away yesterday, without warning. Huhu.

My cousin had this makan2 sempena naik rumah barunya. So yeah, I was there (the house is in Kebia btw) since morning and I was only back at home by 11 pm. I missed some part of the AF concert but I'm glad that both Rini and Obri were out from AF. Especially Rini. Haha. No offence to their fans. We have our own taste kn. :)

Anyway, the plan was to go there either siang or malam. We came in the morning. Then my mother had her mind changed and decided to stay there sampai malam. I feel so bad to him. He was waiting for me to be back at home by afternoon at least. But this change of plan made him feel down katanya. And still is making him feel that way. I guess. Who am I supposed to blame? My mother? *sigh*

I know he must be upset or something. He must be so upset that he went out for his dinner. Alone at first. But then he asked Ilham to join him. At this moment I still feel bad and don't know what to do. Then, it occured to me that I should meet him skajap. So by surprise, my sister and I went to surprise him (with some help from Ilham, hehe). He was surprised alright. And I was happy to think that everything was fine. However, there is still a but there.

So now, I don't know what to do. I've tried my best to make things ok tapi entah lah. He's still sleeping atm. I think. Or maybe he's awake and just don't feel like texting me or something. Maybe. I don't know.

I did the right thing, didn't I?

Anyway, I still have some few chores to do. Saya balum terikah baju adik2 saya. Haha. Then searching for pictures for Bobi's Geography project. :)

Bah sampai sini saja. Hehe. Oh btw, on Monday makan 100 hari arwah bapa Yuh. It will be in Penanjong this time. Just wanted to share this piece of information with all of you. Hehe.

Bye. :)

4 weeks 5 days is still the longest record

That was the longest period of time that I didn't meet him. And it still is. I don't know how, but I survived. :)

Just when I thought there's going to be a new record, he asked me if I want to join him and his nephew jalan2 di Tutong. I was 70% surprised that he asked me. I thought he was joking. Banar. Haha. He was serious anyway, and so I joined them. I was literally smiling widely tadi. Happyyyy that I have the chance to meet him. After 3 weeks 5 days not seeing him, of course lah happy kn. Hehe.

So anyway, we went to Hua Ho. We went out for the sake of buying a t-shirt. His t-shirt. Hehe. And he also bought a dart set tadi. That reminds me. When we were about to go to the ground floor, berbunyi tia alarm ah. We were both surprised, and shocked! Haha. And so we checked everything with the cashier. Nothing was wrong actually. Probably it was the metal on the dart set atu x. Lame. Haha. When we went out from the main entrance nada tia bunyinya. Kambing. Kana prank x. Haha.

After that, we went to the fish section. Pet fish I mean. The one in the aquarium. Hehe. Meliat plg saja. Hehe. Then, off we went to Central Mall. His nephew wanted to buy some marbles but we didn't find any. So, no guli for him. Hehe. Then, went to Mubarak for a while. Looking for some comic. Again, this small hajat of him (Addie), nda kesampaian. Hehe.

And so, we went home. I went home. They dropped by somewhere lagi pasal anak buahnya mau membali mainan. He's 12 btw. :)

That's basically it. Eventhough the outing was short, I enjoyed it. Don't know why. Maybe it's because of the fact that I meet him, and see him. His long hair and tabamness. Haha. Anak buahnya malu sama aku so yeah, we didn't talk. Hehe. I know his name anyway. It's Farid. Farid and his uncle Addie made my day today. Especially his uncle Addie. :)

That's it I think. Hehe. Goodnight everyone. Bye!

The so-called update

Hello peeps. :)

I am actually too tired to update my blog now. Hehe. But anyway, I'll just say few things. If I don't get carried away though. Haha.

So, this morning I went to SMSO. SMSO was the host for the first ever financial explorace in Brunei. Huhu. 30 students from 10 schools participated. Schools from Tutong and KB saja. Hehe. I went there with my brother. We took a lot of pictures. But I didn't get the chance to put them here because the pictures were moved to my bro's laptop and now he's going somewhere. So, I'll upload the pictures here nanti. If saya rajin. Hee. Anyway, it was 40% siuk. Nda banyak orang. So much for the it's-open-to-public thing. Haha. I didn't enjoy it as much as I expected. Maybe because of the hunger x. Haha. Anyway, that's all about the race I guess.

The other thing I want to say is, I want to sleep. Haha. I will do it. Maybe after this. I'm extremely sleepy at the moment. Hehe.

Until here then. :)

The sleepover

I'm updating because I won't be able to update tomorrow or the next day. I'm going to sleepover at my nini's house. One night saja plg. Hehe.

I'll be going to my cousin's place tomorrow morning. The ride is at 7 am. Awaaaal berabisss. Haha. I will wake up, anyway. Hee.

So, this whole thing is basically for my late nini's makan 14 hari. Which is tomorrow. And the next day, Wednesday that is, is makan basar. Just something we do. Dusun people that is. Hehe. He was a brother of my grandfather (mom's side). So yeah, kana pangkat nini jua kn. :)

I won't be plurking. And hence, I expect my karma to decrease by the time I'm back at home. Maybe, just maybe, I'll plurk. To update the timeline once in a while. Hehe. Arah rumah niniku nada service bah. Yatah. How torturing is that? Haha.

That's all for now I guess. Take care everyone.

P/s: And to my dear, I will miss you gendutku. Always. :)

I am surrounded by positive things today

Addie is back from Limbang. Yeay! I survived alright. Haha.

Andddd.... I had a day out! And I had extreme fun! Along with me were Yuh, Qeen and her Apis, Elza, Mayyer, Gixe, Zar and Oshin, the birthday girl.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OSHIN! :)

So for the fun tadi, we went to the beeeaaacchhh. Seri Kenangan that is. Hehe. I really dare say that everyone was having fun fun funnnnnnn! Huhu. We exchanged stories of our life (haha), laughed at each other jokes and clumsiness, took some photos, had a walk on the beach, played with the water (basahkan kaki plg saja, hehe) and watched the sunset. :) Then, unplannedly, went to Jolibee.

After Jolibee, we dropped by at Hua Ho. Jalan saja2, membawa pasir. Haha. Then, it was time to go home. Hehe. Gixe gave me ride tadi. And oh Gixe, nice conversation we had tadi. Hehe. Short yet I still think it was cool. Somehow. Hehe. I hope we can have more conversation regarding that particular topic nanti. Aha. Somehow, we are in the same boat. :)

That's all I can say I think. Hehe. Goodnight people. :)

I miss my boo

My day is looooooooooooong without him. :'(

I wish to be with him, standing under the same cloud, on the same ground, breathing the same air. *sigh*

Good thing that I'm going out tomorrow. At least that will create some sort of distraction. :)

We are now here

Happy 21st month to advv!

I hope we are always blessed. :)

LIFE

A Place Called Here

It's a really great novel from Cecelia Ahern. Really.

I borrowed the novel from Yuh last year. Yes, I've read it since last year. Tabal bah. Haha. Nadalah. Hehe. The last time I read it, which is late last year I think, I stopped at chapter 12. I got bored with it. I don't know. It just didn't manage to catch my attention time atu. Huhu. So, I stopped reading it.

Until recently I knew that Gixe is reading it jua and someone in plurk, Fatin that is, made it sound interesting, I decided to continue with my reading. And now, I've finished it. Well, tadi ptg. Hehe. And yes, it really is a very interesting novel. I like the ending, though maybe some of you who have read it may think that it does not have an ending. Haha. Apakan aku cakap ni. Anyway, I love the fact that it keeps me asking and wondering how everything had happened. It happened, without us knowing the reason. As Fatin said, it's a mystery. Yes, it actually ends that way. :)

Now that I'm done with it, I don't know what to do anymore. More specifically, what to read. Haha. I'm going to make a facebook account soon. As soon as my karma reach 61 that is. Haha. Mau2 jua aku ni. Huhu. Tapi plurk is having some issues at the moment. Or at least that's what I thought it was. Just that, my karma has not changed like since yesterday. And I am indeed annoyed with it.

I am planning to read this another novel titled Sleeping Around. Again, I've stopped halfway jua with this one. Haha. I love reading, and I love stopping halfway. I don't know why. Habit x. :) After this, I plan to read The Bonesetter's Daughter. I've read this few times. The story is just so nice that I don't mind reading it all over again. Haha. Plus, I miss literature class. Huhu.

I guess that's it with the updates. Sorry peeps for the lack of enthusiasm in updating my blog. I just don't know what to post. Even if I do, I really don't want to make it short. Hehe. I don't know why. I just like it even more if my post is long. Huhu.

I'll stop here. And to Elza, good luck for your first day tomorrow. I hope I'll join you guys soon. :)

Goodnight.

The interview, etc.

So, today was the day. Friday the 13th. Huhu. People say that weird things can happen on Friday the 13th. Not that I totally believe it though, but I did say to myself, "let's make weird a positive thing." this morning. And off I went for the interview.

The interview. Hmm. First, it was my first interview, ever. Minus the oral exams. That was sort of an interview bah jua bagiku. Haha. Anyway, it went quite ok. I think I'm safe. I don't want to be so sure though. Huhu. I didn't answer the questions blindly and blankly. Of course not. Haha. Just that maybe my answers are so-so or something. But they did seem to be impressed by some of my answers. So overall, it's a big I'M NOT SURE. Haha.

There was an accident when I was on my way this morning. On the highway near Jerudong Park. It was terribly terrible. I guessed it just happened. There were no ambulance and policemen at that time. Yet. Not yet. And Bruneians, some being as helpful as they can, tried to get the driver out of the car, which was bee-tee-double u in a very bad condition. It was stucked on the tree. On, is it on? Or in? I don't know how to describe it. It also looked like it was cut in half. I don't know lah. Yg penting teruk. Read tomorrow's paper lah. Ada x gambarnya. Hehe. The passenger was a female. She was lying on the road when we passed the scene. And the driver, I've told about the driver I think. :)

Back at home, I'm waiting for awang gendut ku. Berjalan ia lagi ke Limbang. He goes out a lot! Mau diikat ni anak ani. Haha. His brother is around, so biarkan tah saja. Waiting awaits me. Haha.

Until then, goodbye. :)

Friday the 13th

Nope, I'm not talking about that freaking movie. Haha.

I'll be having my job interview at DLS. Basically, it has something to do with quantity surveying. Hehe. Yuh got a job there. I applied a bit late. Elza and her had applied earlier. No news about Elza getting a job there. Plus, ia ckp ia malas. Haha.

I'm keeping this short. Huhu. :)

What the birthday calculator says about me

I was born on a Monday, under the astrological sign Gemini.
My Life path number is 7.

My fortune cookie reads:
One who admires you greatly is hidden before your eyes.

Life Path Compatibility:
I am most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
I should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
I may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
I am least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.

My birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/27/1990 and ending 2/14/1991.
I was born in the Chinese year of the Horse.

My Native American Zodiac sign is Elk; my plant is Mullein.

The Hijrah (Islamic Calendar) date of my birth is Monday, 24 Dhi'l-Qa'dih 1410 (1410-11-24).

My lucky day is Wednesday.
My lucky number is 5.
My ruling planet(s) is Mercury.
My lucky dates are 5th, 14th and 23rd.
My opposition sign is Sagittarius.
My opposition number(s) is 3.

My birthstone is Alexandrite

The Mystical properties of Alexandrite

Alexandrite can assist one in centering the self, reinforcing self-esteem, and augmenting ones ability to experience joy.

My birth tree is

Fig Tree, the Sensibility

Very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a butterfly, good sense of humour, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

The moon's phase on the day I was born was waning crescent.


And yes, I'm bored. Haha.

Untitled No. 7

I just thought I should post something. Some updates perhaps. Huhu.

So, as you all can see, I've changed my skin, yet again. Haha. I wasn't actually that happy with the skin at first. And so, I've changed the colour of my tagboard and plurk jua. I also changed the font. And now, I think I'm satisfied with it. I think. Huhu. I might just stick to this skin longer than all those previous ones. :)

What else?

I've submitted my hecas the other day. Like, finally, it's done. Haha. That cost me $20. :)

I've been trying to look for a job but there's actually nothing that suits me. Haha. And bukan aku memilih tu ah. Huhu. So, I guess I'll just wait for the interview from DLS. I heard Elza got the job jua. I think. Anyway, happy working to those of you who are having a job at the moment, or going to have a job soon. :)

This is it I think. I really want to fast forward to 5pm. I am so bored right now. And he's away. In Labuan that is. So 5pm, come soon. :)

*wave wave*

Tagged

Rules:

• Tag anyone who have their own special love one.
• Anyone who got tagged must do the same thing.
• Answer the questions below, HONESTLY.
  

1. What is his/her full name?
-- Addie Fadlie bin Samsudin

2. What do you usually call him/her?
-- Dear

3. When is his/her birthday?
-- 30th August 1989

4. Do you know his/her family?
-- Yes. But I haven't actually met them.

5. How did you meet him/her?
-- We went to the same school. SMSO that is. :)

6. What is the sweetest thing he/she ever done to you?
-- Banyak. I don't want to list them here. :)

7. Does he/she ever kiss you?
-- Yes.

8. Hold your hands?
-- Yes.

9. Hug you?
-- Yes.

10. Do you ever feel like he/she is the one?
-- Yes. All the time.

11. What would you do if you saw him/her going out with another guy/girl?
-- Nothing.

12. Why?
-- Because I know he won't do that to me. :)

13. Do you love him/her?
-- Always.

14. Do you ever fight with him/her?
-- Yes.

15. Why?
-- Arguments and stuffs. It's normal in every relationship kn. :)

16. Do you ever regret being with him/her?
-- Nope.

17. Does he/she get along with your friends?
-- Yes. My friends are his friends jua. :)

18. Did you ever tell him/her something you don’t actually mean?
-- Yes. I think. Hee.

19. What do you guys have in common?
-- Hmm. Very tough question. I don't want to be sure about this. Maybe he won't agree with me. Hehe. But we did find out that we're the opposite of one another. But we are never different. Yet, we're not the same either. So, I don't know. :)

20. Did you ever tell him/her that you will marry them?
-- Yes. :D

21. Did you ever lie to him/her?
-- Yes. But not that lie lie. Just lie in a not-telling-the-truth way. Is that considered to be lying? :)

22. Did you ever sleep with him/her?
-- No. But I did watch him sleep. Haha. *I have my own reason why I'm laughing, haha* :)

23. What is the song that you want to give to him/her?
-- Hmm. I don't know. But there is this one song. It's called "Because You Loved Me" by Celine Dion. I think that song is nice. :)

24. Why do you love him/her?
-- Seriously, I don't know. Haha. I just do. :)

25. Do you think he/she is perfect?
-- Perfect for being imperfect. At least I know he's human. :)

26. What do you want to change about him/her?
-- Nothing.

27. What do you hate about him/her?
-- Again, nothing. :)

28. Did you ever cheat on him/her?
-- Technically, no. I think. I don't know. Let him judge. :)

29. How long have you been together?
-- 20 months. We had an off last year, then it's on again. Hehe. The 20 months are the time when we're in the relationship. It was supposed to be 21 months. Anyway, I don't really regret that day in July. :)

30. What are the most memorable memories that you could never forget?
-- Plenty of them. Huhu.

31. What is the sweetest gift that he/she ever got you?
-- Every gift from him is sweet. :)

32. Does he/she love you the way you do?
-- I don't know. This question goes to him. :)

33. 5 things you like the most about him/her?
-- I like everything about him. :)

34. 5 things you hate the most about him/her?
-- Nothing.

35. 5 things you find in a guy/girl?
-- Huh? Mcm out of topic saja soalan ani. Haha.

36. I tag:
-- Anyone who is in love. :)

Stressed out

Yes, I am stressed out. Why?? That, a lot of reasons.

One, I still haven't submitted my hecas. YES. And for some reason that I don't want to mention here (pasal aku malas bercerita) maka kusutlah saya.

Two, I feel so really very extremely bored d rumah. *sigh*

Third, I don't know what else to do except blogging and plurking.

So...

I will try to find a job ni. Soon. Daripada batah2 menunggu interview DLS tu. Yuh had her first day working today. Congrates to her. :)

Hecas... Deadline 15th March. Any application outcomes will be notified by 31st May. *heavy sigh*

Bla bla bla. Whatevv.

What else?

Nothing interesting. Random stuffs sja.

Ok then. Goodnight people.

Untitled No. 6

Hey. I'm here again. :)

I've been home alone like since 7.30 onwards tadi. My mom went to SMSO for the Pre-U students registration and stuffs. Huhu. Anyway, I'm no longer alone. My mom was back by 10.30+ tadi. :)

I'm posting something about yesterday. Nothing much. Just something that I forgot to mention yesterday. Like, seriously lupa. Haha.

Anyway, I went to Pizza Hut yesterday. With him of course. *smiling widely*

We were supposed to have lunch together. I mean, the so-called date was supposed to be around noon. But my mom lupa that I asked her to send me there. Huhu. Awuu, alum ku dapat drive. Lesen ku alum berambil. I don't want to ask my mom. Biar tia dulu. :)

So anyway, I was there at 1 something. Lapar ia menunggu. Sian dearku~ :p And for waiting that long, he ate so much. Okayy, more than that. Haha. It's not because he was hungry though. It's just that andg ia makan banyak. Gendut. :D I just love to tease him. Especially here. Ia nda dpt balas. Haha.

I think that's it. I'm off to find another skin. Hehe. Maybe I'll change it again. :)

*wave wave*

My undefined thoughts

So here I am again with a new skin. I found it instantly tadi. Without much effort. But I don't know. Suddenly I feel like it doesn't look right. I don't know lah. Maybe I'll change it lagi nanti. Huhu. Yes, it is very difficult to satisfy me. Huhu.

Last night, I had some thoughts. Thoughts about life.

I keep asking myself, who will cry for me if I die one day?

And no, I don't know anyone who will. And so I wondered again, what if there was no one? Question mark.

And regret. I wish that word never exist.

I regret some decisions that I've made, some actions that I've taken, some words that I've said. But the thing is, it's a choice between two things. You can regret for saying something that shouldn't be said, or for not saying something you should. And either way, somehow, someday, regret manage to find you.

Sometimes I wish I could choose the other decision. Sometimes I wish I could always be happy being the person I am now. Sometimes I hope people realise that I do make mistakes. And for that, sometimes I wish forgiveness is something that can be given easily. Yet, it's not. Because we know it deals with a lot of things. People's heart, mind, feelings, emotions, thoughts and so many other things.

I admit I'm a weak human being. And I don't use that as a reason to make mistakes. I did try to avoid mistakes. But sometimes, they just happened.

There are some things that I want to let some people know. How I really feel about them. That I care so much. It could be anyone. But I just don't know how to say things. Especially things like these. And so, I think, some things are better left unsaid.

And sometimes, I feel like I have no one to talk about things. No one that could only listen. Just listen. Without saying much. Maybe there's no such human being.

You might be thinking that I'm down or sad when I post this but no. I am okay. It's just that these thoughts make me think sometimes. Like, really think.

And yes, I'm glad I am me. No further questions. :)